January, 26th, 2016
When I was younger I was always used to grabbing my diary and writing down everything that happened that day. Of course that was when I was 13. As I got older my diary became my place to sort out my thoughts as well as my day and eventually my life. Although it has been quite awhile since I have wrote my heart has since longed to pour out its contents, with all its emotions and frustrations but also those happier moments of excitement that comes when getting a new job.
With that being said I shall start with a brief overview of who I am and what it means to be me so you can get an idea of what life is like for me.
The most important aspects I should let you know of is that I am a single parent of three young children ages 5, 3, and 2. Right now we live with family of my sons dad Jordan. My sons have the same dad while my daughter has a different dad. Being a single parent of these three young children with no real place of our own is quite frustrating some times but we make do. Bismarck, North Dakota is where we currently call home although South Dakota is where we are originally from.
Aside from all of that information I want to commence today's blog.
Today: January 26th 2016
Today is my day off. I work at Hampton inn as a housekeeper. So far today has been relaxing. I went out to United Tribes Technical College early this morning to apply for job placement assistancd through the Workforce Investment Act. If was a fast application and interview process and they told me that after 4pm today I would be able to pick up my check. Not too long ago I sent out there to go pick it up. I then gave the money to my babysitter/ friend who we stay with Priscilla. She is and has babysat for me while I go to work as well as has let us stay here with her, her husband and her children. I am very greatful to have a friend like her to help us. Sometimes I wish I had some kind of assistance from my sons dad. He doesn't work at all, and stays with his mother. Now that I look back on it I wish I would have given a bit more thought to my future and that of my children's future when I decided to pick a partner. I haven't had a great deal of relationships in my life because I was always worried about my education. Which isn't a bad thing. I didn't think I would have kids untill later in life when I was well established. But regardless of all of that I love my children with all my heart and I am greatful that I have them. I guess as far as my circumstances go it is unfortunate that I am 'stuck' for the time being, but I know that as time goes on my circumstances will change and that things have the potential to become better if I make smarter choices. Out of all that we have had to go through from being homeless or me having to go to school full time (18 credit hours) and take care of my kids while pregnant and working 20-30 hours a week at a fast food place while 7 months pregnant. Through all of this I have learned alot about life in general that I probably would not have known if it were for my trials and tribulations. For example, I would not know how to balance and make use of my time if I had not had to do all of the above. Another that comes to mind is patience. I never used to be patience and sometimes made rash decisions but having children that's not something that you can do. For the most part I guess I should focus on the positive aspects of my life that I have done/accomplished and allow those things to get me out of the situation I am in.
